Heading outside isn't a bad choice, and it's nice outside, the cool spring air. He sips at his drink to get himself a moment to think.

"I don't think I'm going, Laurie."

Because if he goes home, he has to face all of it. Everything he's gone through. Here he can distance himself from the trauma, literally.

Because he doesn't know how to go home anymore. He's not the man who belongs on Krakoa, and he's not handling the trauma of home. How is he supposed to do that? How does he go back to all of that when his team might be breaking up soon? When he'll have to deal with the trauma of his history.

How does he go home and leave Balthier?