[ The implications of that are certainly headache inducing at best. He searches for what to say —- he wants to provide comfort, but how do you soothe a legitimate distress? ]

I spent the last chunk of my life convincing myself that it was rational to distance myself from someone I cared for, and now I’m not going to get the chance to correct that. If you’re here then you’re alive enough for me. [ He clasps David’s hand in his. ]

And I’m 23. I like older men. You’re practically my elder.