he knows he's not the easiest person to get along with β to talk to if it isn't about whatever he's focused on or obsessed with currently. it takes him over β consumes him to the point where he doesn't know how to be bruce wayne and he knows it upsets alfred, but he can't stop. even here. he looks for things to busy himself with. looks for people to go after, take down, punch into the ground until they're not moving and just barely breathing. being anything other than that... he doesn't know if he can do it, despite how dark and lonely a path it is he's heading down by doing it. by being vengeance.
initially, he thought he could just shrug this off β shrug them all off and keep to himself. but they'd found him β searched him out and, despite his not being whatever bruce any of them know, they keep coming around. keep reaching out. lending a hand. inviting him to birthday parties. even stitching him up. they could all stay away from him. it'd be easier. but it takes a sort of courage to not. he's been thinking about that lately. on his own.
he's not afraid of dying. but letting himself even begin to get close to them... that terrifies him. to have more people he could lose. to not know if he has it in him to be what they might need or want. but like with gotham, maybe he just needs to try. )
I can't promise I won't upset you. ( at some point. bruce just has a knack for that with everyone, especially close to him, which isn't many. ) But I don't want it to be like that. With any of you.
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he knows he's not the easiest person to get along with β to talk to if it isn't about whatever he's focused on or obsessed with currently. it takes him over β consumes him to the point where he doesn't know how to be bruce wayne and he knows it upsets alfred, but he can't stop. even here. he looks for things to busy himself with. looks for people to go after, take down, punch into the ground until they're not moving and just barely breathing. being anything other than that... he doesn't know if he can do it, despite how dark and lonely a path it is he's heading down by doing it. by being vengeance.
initially, he thought he could just shrug this off β shrug them all off and keep to himself. but they'd found him β searched him out and, despite his not being whatever bruce any of them know, they keep coming around. keep reaching out. lending a hand. inviting him to birthday parties. even stitching him up. they could all stay away from him. it'd be easier. but it takes a sort of courage to not. he's been thinking about that lately. on his own.
he's not afraid of dying. but letting himself even begin to get close to them... that terrifies him. to have more people he could lose. to not know if he has it in him to be what they might need or want. but like with gotham, maybe he just needs to try. )
I can't promise I won't upset you. ( at some point. bruce just has a knack for that with everyone, especially close to him, which isn't many. ) But I don't want it to be like that. With any of you.
( dick, jason, tim... damian. )