[Accelerator, the real one, shakes his head slowly.]
That brat doesn't know what she's talking about. She's being way too kind.
[He's mumbling that quietly. This is the worst part of the memory - dream - whatever. If it had been the two of them just bickering over the food it would've been tolerable, but having this conversation - Last Order trying to put him in a better light - it hurts to hear. It's wrong.
That messed with his thoughts even more.
He’d understand it if she started crying and hitting him and telling him off. Last Order shouldn’t have had any reason whatsoever to defend him at this point.
The inexplicable situation began to put him on edge.
“Wait a second. You’ve gotta be modifying your memories so it’s more convenient or somethin’. You can’t say stuff like that without glorifying some part of it somewhere. Besides, did it look like they were making me do anything against my will? Your life meant shit to me as long as I could keep going on with the experiment. End of story,” he finished in an almost admonishing tone of voice.
Meanwhile, he was confused about why he seemed to want to look down upon himself like that.
“That isn’t true, says Misaka as Misaka argues with you. If it was, why’d you start talking to the Misakas during the experiment? says Misaka as Misaka makes that inquiry.”
Last Order was not to be dismayed. Her words continued coming at him.
She was like a sweet older sister giving him a talk.
“Think back and remember what happened, says Misaka as Misaka pleads with you. You talked to Misaka a whole bunch of times, but why? says Misaka as Misaka wants to know, even though the answer is clear.”
Accelerator didn’t have anything to say for a moment.
The reason he talked to the Sisters…He didn’t know it, either. “If you think about it calmly, all of it sounded strange, says Misaka as Misaka analyzes further. The reason people want to talk to others is because they want to understand them or to be understood—basically you want to connect with them, and if you just wanted to kill us so that the experiment worked out, then you wouldn’t have decided to talk to us, says Misaka as Misaka makes her point.”
“…Eh? What part of what I said sounds at all like I wanted to connect with anyone!?”
“Yes, that’s the second strange part, says Misaka as Misaka puts up a second finger. Every single thing you said was completely abusive toward Misaka, so it ends up being far away from wanting to connect with them, says Misaka as Misaka continues on.”
“But…,” she said.
“…What if you said those words in the hope that Misaka would deny them?”
“What?” Accelerator stopped.
“You always asserted yourself before the experiments…before battle, says Misaka as Misaka recalls. Almost like you were trying to scare Misaka and almost like you wanted to make Misaka say she didn’t want to fight anymore, says Misaka as Misaka depicts.”
“Huh?” He caught his breath.
“The Misakas didn’t catch on to those signs—they didn’t notice them even one time, says Misaka as Misaka feels regretful about it. But what if, hypothetically, Misaka had said she didn’t want to fight? says Misaka as Misaka is talking about a choice for something that’s already over.”
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That brat doesn't know what she's talking about. She's being way too kind.
[He's mumbling that quietly. This is the worst part of the memory - dream - whatever. If it had been the two of them just bickering over the food it would've been tolerable, but having this conversation - Last Order trying to put him in a better light - it hurts to hear. It's wrong.
That messed with his thoughts even more.
He’d understand it if she started crying and hitting him and telling him off. Last Order shouldn’t have had any reason whatsoever to defend him at this point.
The inexplicable situation began to put him on edge.
“Wait a second. You’ve gotta be modifying your memories so it’s more convenient or somethin’. You can’t say stuff like that without glorifying some part of it somewhere. Besides, did it look like they were making me do anything against my will? Your life meant shit to me as long as I could keep going on with the experiment. End of story,” he finished in an almost admonishing tone of voice.
Meanwhile, he was confused about why he seemed to want to look down upon himself like that.
“That isn’t true, says Misaka as Misaka argues with you. If it was, why’d you start talking to the Misakas during the experiment? says Misaka as Misaka makes that inquiry.”
Last Order was not to be dismayed. Her words continued coming at him.
She was like a sweet older sister giving him a talk.
“Think back and remember what happened, says Misaka as Misaka pleads with you. You talked to Misaka a whole bunch of times, but why? says Misaka as Misaka wants to know, even though the answer is clear.”
Accelerator didn’t have anything to say for a moment.
The reason he talked to the Sisters…He didn’t know it, either.
“If you think about it calmly, all of it sounded strange, says Misaka as Misaka analyzes further. The reason people want to talk to others is because they want to understand them or to be understood—basically you want to connect with them, and if you just wanted to kill us so that the experiment worked out, then you wouldn’t have decided to talk to us, says Misaka as Misaka makes her point.”
“…Eh? What part of what I said sounds at all like I wanted to connect with anyone!?”
“Yes, that’s the second strange part, says Misaka as Misaka puts up a second finger. Every single thing you said was completely abusive toward Misaka, so it ends up being far away from wanting to connect with them, says Misaka as Misaka continues on.”
“But…,” she said.
“…What if you said those words in the hope that Misaka would deny them?”
“What?” Accelerator stopped.
“You always asserted yourself before the experiments…before battle, says Misaka as Misaka recalls. Almost like you were trying to scare Misaka and almost like you wanted to make Misaka say she didn’t want to fight anymore, says Misaka as Misaka depicts.”
“Huh?” He caught his breath.
“The Misakas didn’t catch on to those signs—they didn’t notice them even one time, says Misaka as Misaka feels regretful about it. But what if, hypothetically, Misaka had said she didn’t want to fight? says Misaka as Misaka is talking about a choice for something that’s already over.”
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