[It's a really obvious lie, even Accelerator knows this. There isn't really any point in sticking to it but he does anyways, regardless of how irrational it is. It's still bewildering and terrifying to him that he's feeling these kinds of emotions, going the extra step and actually acknowledging them is... not something he can manage to do right now.
Despite all of that, and despite this topic making him feel worse, he isn't about to tell Leo to shut up. That almost feels like it'd be some kind of weird acknowledgement that he's lying, and he isn't stupid. He gets Leo is trying to help him, and he grudgingly appreciates that, especially when he doesn't deserve it.]
I don't see how that can be nice.
[It's a lot more painful, for one. Before he knew Last Order he felt hollow most of the time. Now? It just hurts.]
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Despite all of that, and despite this topic making him feel worse, he isn't about to tell Leo to shut up. That almost feels like it'd be some kind of weird acknowledgement that he's lying, and he isn't stupid. He gets Leo is trying to help him, and he grudgingly appreciates that, especially when he doesn't deserve it.]
I don't see how that can be nice.
[It's a lot more painful, for one. Before he knew Last Order he felt hollow most of the time. Now? It just hurts.]