“Because sometimes I don’t care,” Jason says. The lasso’s magic continues to break down Jason’s refusal to tell years-old truths he’s hid. “Sometimes, I’m angry. Sometimes I think it’s a better means to an end than what you or others do. Sometimes, I want to feel something other than existential dread and how meaningless my life was.”

At the last admission, Jason’s his face warms up as shame rises. This was something he never ever wanted to talk about.