[He winces at the flashes.They're nauseating. It's too much.]

[That poor woman, and tied to the weird clown, too, the same one that -]

[The torn uniform, the sound of the crowbar hitting someone earlier -]

[But Jason's wrong. It's not the same.]

Look, I know there are parts that other people chose. A company called Damage Control was bankrolling Nitro and gave him the drug. They knew it would escalate to metas infighting over registration with the government and they'd get contracts to repair the damage.

And Nitro was perfectly fine with killing all those people and killing kids.

I know there are places where other people chose to do terrible things.

But at the end of the day, I'm still the one that rushed us in without a plan. That insisted we fight them for ratings. I'm the one that pushed my friends into still doing the show when they were barely interested.

All because I liked the attention.

Nothing can ever change that. All I can do now is try to be better.