( which is neither, thanks, but he also realizes that it's just--giving kyle the win. because he's still thinking of it like it's something to win. not kyle, just--this. which is something he's not quite sure how to put into words, even if he wanted to. life is a complex mess of differing rules for different things and jason only has some of it down. definitely not this bit. jason reaches a hand up to curl fingers around kyle's wrist. pulls his hand away from his chin, and instead moves it to rest his palm against jason's cheek. )

I want you. ( voice quiet, soft. ) I want this. Everything else feels like it's on fire, but this doesn't, and I need that. ( not want but need. ) Which's funny as shit, considering how much of an ass you are.