[ He supposes that's a fair point, but he has no real grasp on what the limits of magic or technology are here, person to person. Besides, he accepted that risk in coming here.
The instructions are easy enough, similar to his magical studies in his youth -- clearing one's mind, focusing, ignoring side sensations. The worst memory comes easier; it's been on his mind the last few days, bidden or not. At least it has some use today.
He lets it come. Ending his father with his own hand. That face. Not offended, not disappointed. Accepting, like this was all that would ever be. His words -- that Balthier only runs.
The god's influence, gone, and his father's cruelty still there. That was the wound, wasn't it? The one he hadn't dared touch since he'd arrived. That he'd never been enough, never could have been. That it was always going to end that way. That he'd had no choice. That for all his cowardice, he was pulled back in.
If Loki's looking, he'll see the weight of it cross Balthier's face, but he's otherwise stoic. ]
Have you done this before?
[ Not that it changes anything. It's just a deflecting habit. ]
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The instructions are easy enough, similar to his magical studies in his youth -- clearing one's mind, focusing, ignoring side sensations. The worst memory comes easier; it's been on his mind the last few days, bidden or not. At least it has some use today.
He lets it come. Ending his father with his own hand. That face. Not offended, not disappointed. Accepting, like this was all that would ever be. His words -- that Balthier only runs.
The god's influence, gone, and his father's cruelty still there. That was the wound, wasn't it? The one he hadn't dared touch since he'd arrived. That he'd never been enough, never could have been. That it was always going to end that way. That he'd had no choice. That for all his cowardice, he was pulled back in.
If Loki's looking, he'll see the weight of it cross Balthier's face, but he's otherwise stoic. ]
Have you done this before?
[ Not that it changes anything. It's just a deflecting habit. ]