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jason todd. ([personal profile] reneger) wrote in [community profile] metalogs2023-07-27 01:46 pm

i was born to hold my hands up (open)

Who: jason todd [personal profile] reneger & whoever
What: downfall event prompts ; post-event happenings
When: late july - august
Where: excelsior, central city, nyc
Content Warnings: body horror, child death, child abuse, general violence, drug overdose, suicidal idealization, etcetc



prompts in the comments because.... i can.
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[personal profile] torchbearer 2023-08-01 09:25 am (UTC)(link)
[ kyle is soft. he is soft when he learned of hal's pain and even gave back his ring. he was soft even when yrra had lost herself to vengeance, thinking of what a sad story it was. he was soft, even when he was angry, even when batman blinded him because he knew that wasn't the outcome batman ever intended. he was soft when he gave up ultimate power to bring back the guardians and oa.

kyle would not give up being soft for anything. and he won't give this up. he shivers with pleasure at the kiss, relaxing. ]


I just want to hold onto Kyle. Just for a while longer.
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[personal profile] torchbearer 2023-08-02 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ kyle chuckles. he definitely expected that answer. it's always like that, the back and forth, but that's fine. it doesn't unsettle him and it doesn't bother him. it's just how they communicate. ]

Good. Because I like Jason some of the time too.
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[personal profile] torchbearer 2023-08-02 12:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[ kyle did say early on how he doesn't play. he always throws his whole heart into things. everything. almost as if he has seen a life of missed opportunities. as if he traces the lines of his palm, thinking of what a future would have been like if alex dewitt had lived.

in jason, he is not looking at that kind of future. the shape of it has changed. he's right in that jason is not soft. he's always been hard, burning up, raging. it frustrated kyle to no end, the way he held himself apart from the rest, the bad boy routine. and yet.

there was certainty there. because the core of jason was not a flicker of a match or the smell of self-destructive gasoline. and he knew that. he knew. he knew when jason crept into his window, he knew when he brought kyle takeout or bullied him into moving and kyle just folded because he wanted to be in this orbit. he wanted to be pulled along, even with his soft underbelly. he moans into the kiss, aching for it. ]
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[personal profile] torchbearer 2023-08-06 09:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ it's new.

kyle recalls vividly the way alex fit against him, brushing away her long hair to kiss her neck. with donna, she would pin him down before they embraced. with jenny, they would fly. holding hands, they crossed the stars. all of those people who make up kyle. he could not extricate them from himself any more than he could rip his heart from his chest. all his love, etched deep in his bones.

but kyle isn't interested in comparing it. those are not the thoughts running through his head. he's not trying to fit jason into a slot that existed before. his palms press themselves against his back as to hold him close forever, to remove any kind of space that could exist between them as a buffer. he chases after jason's lips to deepen the kiss. ]
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[personal profile] torchbearer 2023-08-07 07:45 am (UTC)(link)
I mean it.

[ he meant it long before. saying it out loud hasn't changed his response. it's just a confirmation. a certainty. in a world of dreams and outside of it, kyle will remain. steady as a heartbeat. ]
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[personal profile] torchbearer 2023-08-08 07:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ oh. kyle tucks him close, as much as he can. that is a fear that reverberates through them both. he needs this as much as jason does. ]

I'm here. I've got you.
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[personal profile] torchbearer 2023-08-09 12:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[ perhaps that was it. that, despite their bickering and fights and everything else, things slid into place. not that jason was a stranger to loss before. kyle knew his story, even if he never knew every detail. and this plea, he feels it down in his very bones. I can't, I can't, I can't keep doing this. and you want that to make everything okay, to answer the cry with the same magnitude. to rearrange the world that way.

and he could. he could. he feels that power within him, a starheart. jenny's starheart. it would be so tempting. but kyle knew fear. that's what made him unique among the lanterns. giving jason a promise won't magically change that fear. or stop what could come.

kyle takes jason's hand. a hand made for bruises. kyle always takes care of his own hands, too afraid of losing his talent, his art. they both amount to the same thing. ]


Jason, making that promise . . . I want to. I've always wanted to. For every single person I loved. For the people I lost.

But I can't. I can promise to fight. I can promise my power, my rage, my steadfastness. I can promise in this universe, I'll always be.

And if you go to any others, I'll find you.

[ he squeezes their knuckles together. ]

I'll find you.
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[personal profile] torchbearer 2023-08-10 10:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ quietly. ]

I'll keep it.

[ he doesn't add to it. he doesn't need to. kyle is just . . . straightforward like that. he doesn't make it flowery. he doesn't make it desperate. it is a fact now. unshakeable. ]